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A 42 year old woman, married lives in Florida, a mom with a full time job as a client relations agent in the furniture industry. Originally from El Salvador moved to the United  States in her late twenties. Loves Makeup, fashion, all things femenine, simple things in life like reading, walks, a good movie, expending time with friends and her family. She always liked makeup but truly discovered her true love and passion for makeup when the pandemic hit.  She wants to express her journey through the beauty world and hopes her findings become as exciting and useful to like minded souls, eager to continue to learn about the beauty industry.

Let’s talk sexy! Isamaya Industrial eye shadow paletre

Hola amores! Its been a minute, been busy with makeup school, I believe I told you I am pursuing to get certified as a makeup artist 🥰 it has been a journey that you can check out on my IG ❤️

I trust you are well, all is good with me thank goodness 😊 so let’s talk about this palette!

Industrial Color Pigments  eye shadow palette

Well, I adore the packaging when a brand puts beyond and above effort into the packaging makes me happy and is part of the seduction of the customer. This one is not for the faint of heart and is themed by BDSM. The shape of the woman is raised up and the palette is not uncomfortable to hold or use.

This is a mix of mattes, metallics and shimmers and is neutral 🫠

The mattes

Well all the mattes are sparkly and the textures are interesting, to say the least through the palette some feel like play-doh lol, some are creamy all blend seamlessly. I had no issues blending. Fallout yes this is why I recommend doing the eyes before the face.

Shimmers and mettalics

All stunning, beautiful my favorite is Belt the texture when touching it is very porous like a soft coconut cookie lol but is so soft and creamy once ready to apply and it shines like the stuff from fairy tales is a very special shade the most special I seen in palettes

Overall it surpassed my expectations and is pigmented, fun, and high-quality def looks and feels luxurious I fell in love with it. I def recommend it is a purchase you won’t regret but will bring joy. They go for controversial packaging like their new lipsticks they are male intimate parts! shaped lol but what I love is they are not just about attention grabbers they serve quality with a fun twist!

This palette even though I love it will go up for sale tonight at a discounted price of course due that I don’t want it to expire due to me testing other palettes! Will be a crime to do that to this gem. You can get it at my store here

Lest be friends follow me on my socials and get some tea on yours trully 😇

I wish you always the best! Thankful always for you, hugs from me to you 🫠 see you, next time baby, 🤩💋

✨️Friendly suggestions to help Ukraine 
✔️Donate monthly to Organizations like Save the children which is a reputable award winning charity.
✔️Positve thoughts
✔️All of the above ( my personal choice)

Fun eye catching packaging on the outside and quality eyeshadows inside 🥳 Zeesea Cosmetics

Hello amores 🥰 It’s been a minute since I posted last but had a couple of health issues. One I had a scheduled pap screening to check that my uterus is well after my procedure in July about the pre-cancer.

I did the test and right the next day I started bleeding like crazy filling up 5 pads a day! And not on period time so the mental stress for the 2 weeks I had to wait for the results was tough, luckily the test came back after two weeks and was normal, and on top got Covid! First time I get it!

My spirit was down for December 😔 right at the end of it the sun came out again in my life I was Covid free and with a clean bill of health, my Uterus was ok!

I decided to start making my dreams happen and joined a prestigious makeup school that started in November. I am learning besides makeup basic hairstyles 😊 I put school updates like practice and anything related to this journey on my socials 🥰

Feeling grateful and blessed. Having a much bigger appreciation for life. Life is truly just an instant we cannot dwell on things that no matter, or be upset with friends and family that matter for stupid things. We need to help even in a small way to people in need. We need to live ❤️

Now let’s talk about the palette! 😄

The British Museum Palette

Zeesea is a Chinese brand that worked with the royal British museum for this palette, it’s inspired by Alice in Wonderland. The packaging is eye-catching and fun! I love when brands put thought into that! I mean one can buy a product just for the packaging alone!

The mattes

This is a full-color palette not for neutral babies, but can be paired with any neutral palette for a pop of color! The shades are ultra-pigmented, blendable, and buildable. I had no issues with it. The fallout was none but I always tap, tap, tap! 😄

The Simmers and Glitter gel shade

The shimmers are nice and subtle, you can always make them pop even more using a mixing medium or glitter glue. Also has a couple of topper shades that shine nicely. The star here is the glitter gel, this is my favorite type of gel, feels wet to the touch and is ready to apply with no mess you can use your fingers or a silicone brush. It’s very pretty and shiny!

Overall it’s a solid palette I do not have any complaints. I enjoyed it and def recommend it if you love color! You can def create some magical looks with it 🫠

This palette will be up for sale in my store at Mercari at a discounted price 😊 will be up later tonight or tomorrow. You can check my store here 👇

Let’s be friends! You can follow me on my socials here 👇

Well, my loves I hope you had a joyful New Year’s night. Wishing you only the best for this 2023 🥳 May it be filled with joy, blessings, and Health. See you honey in my next post 💋🥰🫠

Somewhere over the raimbow follow the yellow brick road to get to Emerald City Palette 🐕‍🦺🦁👠🧙

Overall is a nice cute palette! Perfect for Xmas and any time of the year honestly. I love the packaging is cardboard but made nicely!

Hola Amores! How are things? What plans do you have for Thanksgiving? I am good soon at the end of this month I have a mandatory screening test on my Uterus to check if all is good after removing all the pre-cancerous cells, the test is a pap smear even though I am calm I am also a bit nervous since I have to wait two weeks for the results 😩 but thinking positive all will be good and my Uterus has kept at bay any bad 😊 for thanksgiving nothing special just a quiet dinner at home with the fam and right after my Dr appointment the next day I will fulfill a longtime wished dream well the start of it that was put on hold until life made me realized no point in doing such thing (putting it on hold). Lovies we have to make our dreams happen the when is now!

The Palette

It consists of a combination of mattes, shimmers, metallics, and one duo-chrome.

The Mattes

Has 4 Mattes, from all the formulas here the mattes were my favorites, they are very pigmented and blended well. I found that was best to tap first to lay the color to build to the desired level and then blend. I would recommend using a white base but will work well without it.

The Shimmers

They are nice but they are soft in the sense that is not high shine as I like my shimmers to be ☹️dont get me wrong they are still very pretty and a lot of beauties out there like their shimmers to be softer and not blinding like me lol but wanted to point that out. You will need a medium, a setting spray, or glitter glue to make them pop a bit, just your finger works too. The duo chrome Magic Wand well I did not see the shift 😭 must be subtle…to me is more of a shimmer there are other Indie brands that by just looking at the pan from afar it shifts! Just an FYI. Alongside the palette shimmers, I used flakes and loose shimmers from other brands to serve me that blinding shine I was going for when doing looks with it lol.

Somethings noticed

Mattes are buttery smooth, did not get eye staining, and shimmers Emerald City is a bit mushy the brush will sink in quickly and Magick Wand besides mushy feels porous to the touch, this one has fallen out alongside Yellow Brick road. I recommend doing the eyes first then the rest of the face 😊 Always tap the brush on the palette before applying either mattes or shimmers.

I saw on their IG that the whole family helped with getting orders out since Indie brands are owned by usually one person or two and I could see the effort put out into this collection so kudos to them! I will be selling this cutie today at my store at a discounted price 🫠

On my socials I do short videos on these looks and one mini Tutorial on one of these as well the palette can be seen there 🙃

Let’s be friends follow me on my socials here 👇

You can shop my beloved stash! Here 👇

I wish you gorgeous a very happy thanksgiving to you and your family. I feel grateful for you that take time to read me big thanks from the bottom of my heart. See ya soon 😘

✨️Friendly suggestions to help Ukraine 🇺🇦
✔️Donate monthly to Organizations like Save the children which is a reputable award winning charity.
✔️Positve thoughts
✔️All of the above ( my personal choice)

Beauty Killer 2 Palette by Jeffree Star cosmetics is it worth it? 🤔

Holaaa mis Amores! Hola lovies! How are you today? I hope you are well! I am doing good, and excited that tomorrow is Halloween! We are coming in costume to work lol so I will attempt for the first time a Halloween makeup! I plan to go scary so will see if turns out scary like in my head or funny 🤣 I will post the look on my IG and Tiktok tomorrow 🧌👻 let’s talk about this palette, shall we?

The Palette

The packaging is simple compared to other Jeffree Star palettes but I do like it. I think is cute! It has 10 huge eyeshadow pans that will last you forever lol and some say the color story is difficult that has no coherence when I do the eye looks I use the color wheel as guidance. I Had no issues however is limited to possibilities.

The mattes

They are pigmented, however for shadows like Blow up doll, Self Expression and Respect I would say put a white base to bring the color even more, without the base even building up the color looks pale, like a wash of color I am medium skin and found I needed that. I had no issues blending, there is fallout, and I had some patchiness with the darkest shades, I recommend tapping the shadow first and then blending.

The shimmers

They are all beautiful! Not high shine as I love my shimmers to be but they look very pretty on the eyes, also fallout here. I had no issues applying them and blending them, I used a medium to make them pop a bit more.

I also used Eye Gloss one of the new products from the brand and I was quite surprised they are sparkly and do look beautiful and kinda metallic on the eyes, just not as shiny as I want them to be. I hope he continues to improve his shimmers. The eye gloss is promising indeed I liked them a lot.

Jeffree Star Cosmetics started as my favorite brand but now shares its spot with others since I think they need their color story palettes to be not only monochromatic that gets old fast! but with fun color stories and his shimmers need to be like the stuff fairies use lol you get my point. I feel he is stuck in a phase in his makeup line and I hope he wakes up and brings chaos and fun!

Overall I do recommend this palette, I love has a unique color story, and is fun to play with I give it an 8 out of 10 I will put this palette in my store today at a, of course, great price 😊

You can buy my stash that has been cared and loved by me 🙂 here 👇

Follow me on my socials, let’s be friends and share our love for makeup! Here 👇

Let’s not forget about Ukraine and helping others, an act of kindness makes the world a better place for a suffering soul ❤️

I hope you grab your makeup and create, there are no rules in makeup which I love! Play with some color! Have fun with it! I wish you a happy Halloween! Are you wearing a costume? If you do enjoy it! Me off to bake a spooky cake 👻 to bring to work tomorrow 🎂 Until next time beauties! Kisses 💋💋💋

Half Magic Beauty from the Euphoria mua do they deliver magical fun like on TV 🤔

Holaa amores lovies. I hope you are well. Are you going to put on a costume for Halloween? Well, I plan to! and attempt some creepy look with makeup for the first time! will see how that goes lol I will post my look on Tiktok on Halloween day if you want to check the final result! Today I bring you this very new brand by mua euphoria tv show!

I got me some goodies just a few to try them out.

Chromadiction Sky Blue

This is a matte liquid eyeshadow. It is beautiful you can do just a wash of color or build it up, best to work and blend on one eye first then the other as they dry out fast but you get room to work with it. I found a little patchiness but you can fix it just as quickly.

Chromadiction Main Character

This is a magenta shimmer and a subtle one. For me needs more shine however looks nice to the eye.

Glitterpill: Neptune Daddy and Money Plz

Well, they are not opaque you will need to build them up to get that shine to show, but once on the eyes, they are so beautiful! My favorite even though turquoise is a favorite color of mine in this case Money Plz…Stole the show is mesmerizing!

Angel Rave Liptrick

The lippie is a soft purple emphasis on the softness is more like a wash of color, the lip liner which has two colors one blue and the other purple is also soft. All together looks like a wash of color I wish were more bold and impactful, however, they do look pretty just the lip liner kinda blends into the lip so you lose the effect but is pretty.

I also got the wing magician to help with eye wings that I had not used it yet but have no science is a good tool to have. And also got face lace decals which can bring the fun out of an eye look! Overall I do think the brand is fun, love their packaging, and if afraid of color you can try it and make it soft.

I hope you liked this post then check this brand out they have come out with a very interesting eyeliner that promises some fun shapes on top of the traditional, I have my eye on it lol.

Here some looks 😝

These products will not be in my store as I think the way they come packaged is more for personal use.

Let’s be friends folow me on my socials here 👇

See ya soon babe 💋

The little Palette that could 😊 Trying out the Petit Pro Paris Etoile by Viseart

This palette is tiny but has nothing to envy to a medium size palette or even a big one since carries 8 shade colors! It’s convenient to travel and to have it on the go in your bag 🤗

Holaaa mis amores, hello lovies! How are things? I caught a very nasty flu, I am better now and thank goodness was not covid! Take care of yourself with the weather changes 😊 So let’s jump in 🙂

Who finishes an entire palette? No one lol so the smaller pans is actually good and there is a ton of product there so even a small one like this one you won’t finish it!

The Palette

8 colors that lean more on the neutral side

the mattes are good I found some patchiness but is because of over blending and my eye base dries matte fast so I do not blame the palette.

The shimmers are subtle not much on my alley since I looooove impactful high-shine shimmers! But there is one shimmer that is shinier than the others and honestly, I loved it that shade is the silver one-looking color next to the darkest shimmer.

The shades do not have names on the palette which I don’t care about. The price was affordable and overall I recommend giving it a go 😊

I wish you a great week ahead of you. See ya the next time love, much love your way!

Check out my Mercari store here to get my stash at a really low price here 👇

Let’s be friends follow me on my socials here 👇

Let’s enjoy life, forget about resentment or feelings that will only hurt you, value your family and friendships, mend broken friendships, and be humane to others life is too short to be dwelling you never know when your time will be up.

kisses lovies 💋

Flower Moon Duochrome Palette. A fun beautiful thing to play with 😏

It’s not a boring palette, you can create a ton of looks from the most subtle one to the most fun one 😋

Hola lovies! Happy beginning of October or spooky season! My favorite time of the year in the makeup world! Halloween is one of my favorite days how about you? I hope you are well and fab! Let’s begin with this post

Flower Moon Palette

This palette is by Ensley Reing Cosmetics an Indie brand that has 4 Mattes and 15 Duo-chromes. I like the color story but felt needed more colors like a black matte and like a white or silver Duo-chrome just to wrap up the looks.

The mattes

I felt a bit limited since only 4 of them, would be nice to have besides de black a nude matte to blend the main color and black for depth but you can work with the 4 mattes for sure. Some beauties need their depth, you can always pair this palette with another one. Also another important thing I had no issues, no patchiness, really easy to blend and they are rich in pigment.

The Duo-chromes

They are all beautiful! Some feel like toppers, others feel pigmented and thick to cover the eye. My favorite shade is Vernal is pigmented and super shiny! Is gorgeous! A con is that the shades are not as shifty as they are on swatching on the skin, they are very subtle once on the eye and the shine is okay but not all shades are as shiny.

Overall it is a nice palette it has some for the neutral lovers and the color lovers like me. I created 3 looks and of course, put in there my touch 🤪

Currently, the palette is sold out the price list is $69 which I think is a bit overpriced because the duo-chromes are not as shifty but is my understanding that the formula of creating these types of shades adds up to the cost.

I recommend it if you want to try the brand it is beautiful you can get truly beautiful looks out of it. but if you are looking for super shifty shadows then this palette is not the way to go. When I got the palette I saw a wet stain around some shadows which I think is the formula seeping out. Overall I give it 7 out of 10.

This palette is going for sale at my store at a of course reduced price 😊 here 👇

Let’s be friends on Instagram, Tiktok and twitter you can find me there as 👇

I did an unboxing video as well a tutorial and eyelooks bits on my socials, you can check them out there 🙃

I wish you loves a great start of October! Be safe and stay glam! See ya soon 🤗💋

About-Face Beauty. What a fun, delicious explosion of color💥 😏

Hello loves, I hope all is well. How is life going? I am doing well, today I want to talk about this fun brand, let’s begin

This is a celebrity brand by Halsey. I honestly found the brand the other way around for its makeup, not the celebrity, I did not know who Halsey was. She is one cool soul for sure and seems very hands-on with her brand doing tutorials herself and talking all about her brand.

This is what I bought:

• Shadow fix smoothingg eye primer. Always sold out but luckily I grabbed one 🙂

• Matte fluid eye paint in color Capulets (Nude)
• Matte fluid eye paint in color Vertigo (Green)
• Matte fluid eye paint in color New Karma (Light Purple)
• Matte fluid eye paint in color Blue Monday (Pastel Blue)

• Matte paint lip color: Saccharine (Pink)
• Matte paint lip color: Cautionary Tale (Nude)
• Matte paint lip color: Obscure Desire (Wine(
• Matte flix lip pencil in color: Madness (Wine)
• Matte flix pencil in color: New Love (Pink)
• Matte flix pencik in color: Smoking Room (Nude)
• Light Lock lip gloss in color: Unholy (Light pastel blue)

• Matte fluid eye paint in color Infinity (Dark blue)
• Matte fluid eye paint in color It’s Blitz (Pastel yellow)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color: Important (Nude)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color: Sadgirl (Blue)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color: Blue is the new black ( Dark blue)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color: Into the Void (Black)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color: Leave me Breathless (Pink)
• Line artist gel eyeliner in color Call me Crazy (Green)
• Light Lock iluminating body: CGI
• Light Lock body brush

Shadow fix matte smoothing eye primer

I am still getting the hang of it. I do not like that it dries fast! So you need to spread it quickly without delay otherwise will look patchy and no way to fix it unless to use makeup remover to fix it.

Matte fluid eye paint

they are pigmented!, however, I think it needs just a little practice, the first time I applied just a little and spread or difuminated with a brush, you have to act quickly otherwise will look patchy. I like you can either do a wash of color if you going for subtle or build up if you going for a bold colorful eye. The colors are rich and beautiful, the package is fun I never saw one like it. Does last all day and loved how my eyes look! The brand won an award for these last year.

Line Artist Gel eyeliner.

These are all you ever want in an eyeliner, they are so pigmented, creamy, and last all day! You can do a whole eye look using only the eyeliners which are so fun! The brand won an award for them too this year.

Matte paint lip color and Matte flix pencil color.

Omg, I love the formula! Lasts all day without re-applying, feels hydrating, and you can easily forget is on your lips. Packaging is similar to the eyepaints where some people have complained but I don’t. I care about the formula and is one to love! You can get them in sets with their matching pencil colors, they feel creamy, smooth, and oh yes pigmented!

Light lock lip gloss.

I got the shade unholy. I am in love with it, smells yummy like chocolate peppermint and is like a shiny, iridescent pastel blue.

Light lock iluminating body and brush.

I got it in the purple shade not thinking it will look good or not on my skin lol, got it just because I love purple! Anyways makeup is about having fun right? It looks really pretty, to be honest, gives a nice ethereal glow, the brush is a good size, supersoft,t and gets the job done.

Overall I loved using the products, had so much fun, and the colors are delicious and a delight to put on my eyes 🙃 did some reels and til toks that you can check here 👇

I love their packaging is different from what we are used to, which makes the experience fun! I for sanitary reasons will not sell these products by the way they pack it is obviously for personal use but I do recommend it to you to try them out. There is something for all, the color lover and also for the neutral babes. I give them an 8 out of 10

I hope you try it out also they have a very new second brand called af94 sold at Walmart offering their products for under $10 which is fabulous! I wish you only good things, have a great week ahead, and take care of yourself. See ya soon!

I stand with Ukraine

✨️Friendly suggestions to help Ukraine 🇺🇦
✔️Donate monthly to Organizations like Save the children which is a reputable award winning charity.
✔️Positve thoughts
✔️All of the above ( my personal choice)

This Duochrome palette surprised me I have never seen pressed-on glitter be so shifty and shiny! 😳 Metamorphosis by Bellabeaute bar

Hello, love I hope you are well as well as your loved ones 😊 I am overall well going forward with my life, back to what makes me happy Makeup! 🥰

I will try my hardest to keep my posts short, so here we go with today’s post 🙃

Well, this palette is very much different from any other palette I bought its all Duochrome shimmers and has different textures.

what surprised me was the pressed glitters, who puts that on a palette so bold and beautiful? When you try to pick it up you will need a flat brush then putting on the eye is a bit tricky and you need a little patience, I recommend glitter glue and once on the lid put clear liquid primer on top like Diamond Primer from Glam Goth Beauty

Once on the eyes oh my gosh it’s so shiny, beautiful and so shifty! I’ve never seen a pressed-on glitter shift! The rest of the shimmers are also Duochrome some are subtle and some are pure glowing dreamy deliciousness.

To be honest, I did not like when trying to pick up the glitter with the brush how fragile the content felt in the pan, and then to put on requires a little effort, however, they seem to stay put in the palette and no fall out they feel wet to the touch.

Overall I love the palette I got so many compliments on how shiny my eyes looked, people asked me how I did it! Once the glitters are on the eye they don’t fall off, they last all day, and honey they shift!

I give it 9 of 10 right now is sold out, I do not know if the brand will bring it again but will put mine for sale at my store in Mercari later on tonight. I do recommend if you are a lover of something different, getting compliments and love high shine in your eyes! You can check out my store here 👇

I wish you a fabulous week! I am on Tik tok where I uploaded a few vids with looks from this palette I am also on Twitter and of course Instagram you can find me in all of my socials as:

See ya soon 💋💜

Dealing with the unthinkable…

I was at work talking on my phone FaceTiming with my Dr office the nurse said your results are abnormal we need to do a Biopsy for cancer. At that moment my world came cane to a stop, I felt suspended in time. I felt scared.

Hello sweets 🙂 apologies that I did not continue to post but as you can tell from the theme of this post I have been dealing with the unthinkable. I hope you are well alongside your loved ones 🥰 what’s new in your life? 🙃 I am a very private person in super personal stuff, but the reason I am sharing this is to make awareness to all of you beautiful ladies out there ❤

It all started in April. Since I got my period at 12 years old my period has never changed, has always been regular, and lasts 8 days. The period this past April lasted 11 days which I thought was odd but then I remembered in just a couple of days I was having my annual women’s exam so I waited to see the Dr.

Once on the appointment, Dr did a pap smear and said He does not see a concern for the extra period days but if becomes recurrent like in the next three periods then we can look into it. So I left a little more at ease.

5 days after I started bleeding! was like a medium flow and lasted for 4 days I called my Dr and even though they are booked (you have to make an appointment a month before) they brought me right away and did an Ultrasound.

The Ultrasound was good all clear the Dr explained no cysts or polyps and in regards to the bleeding nothing to worry about but to continue to watch it. I left and waited for the pap smear results.

I was at work and got a call from my Dr around 9 am that they needed to do a facetime call  around 11 am (It, ‘s not a facetime has a name but the concept is the same forgot the term for it)

I never had this type of call with my Dr, therefore I was a bit concerned. Finally, the call came so I went to an empty room in the office and was the Doctors nurse she said the pap smear was abnormal and that they needed to do a Biopsy!

At that moment my world came crumbling down, and tears started filling up my eyes. I asked why. She said was to rule out cancer. She noticed my distress and said do not think horrible things just calm down all will be ok and proceeded to schedule my appointment for 1 month after.

The procedure that they were going to do is called Colposcopy, the wait time of one month felt like an eternity, I was in a state of stagnation, I felt like I was suspended in time. I was very scared.

I got home and as soon I saw my husband I burst into tears, he got scared and asked me what is it.  when I told him he hugged me and cried with me we both calmed down by saying all will be ok. I honestly could only think of my son, would be very hard to leave him and for him to lose his mother.

I stopped doing my makeup to go to work, posting on my socials, writing new posts for my blog, and selling my stash in my Store in Mercari. I just could not function, all I could think was that freaking biopsy.

I tried my hardest to think positive and fought those pesky negative thoughts, would cry when alone and was fearful of bleeding again all of a sudden!  now even more! and on top of that, I lost count of my cycle!

One day just two weeks before the procedure I started bleeding, was at the end of my work day. I jumped in my car and started to cry thinking about what is happening to me! Got home and my husband hugged me and with great strength on his part calmed me down. By the second day, I confirmed this bleeding was my period and felt relieved but my nerves and my mind were stressing me out.

The day the colposcopy came in, I asked for the day off at work. When I got there they put me in a room that I have not seen before, it was extremely cold and a weird big looking machine was there alongside a tray with tools.

The Dr explained they will put a camera inside, and take samples of the entrance of the cervix, the wall of the uterus and the upper side of the cervix to be tested he told me to lay down and not to worry it won’t hurt. He also said he did not think is cancer due to me doing every year a pap smear and were all normal which helped the odds.

I laid down and when my legs were up in position, my legs started to shake uncontrollably due to the cold, I could not control them, he inserted a device to maintain open the vagina, let me tell you that hurt then told me to be perfectly still and turned off the lights, the only light on was the machine so he could see inside.

He started to take samples and was giving instructions to the nurse. He finished the procedure at all times he was explaining what he was doing and he made it as peaceful as possible for me. Then he told me I will be bleeding for a day or two and in one week he will call to give me the results of the biopsy.

This waiting period of one week was extremely stressful, then on the 7th day when on my way home that dreaded call from my Dr office came in, it was my Dr, he sounded serious so I knew something was up, he said it’s not cancer is Pre cancer, I had severe dysplasia which is pre-cancerous cells and from the levels of risk from 1 to 3, I was from 2 to 3 very high risk.

He said we needed to do a procedure called Leep where he will burn all the pre-cancerous cells and remove a disk size piece from my uterus to do a biopsy to test for cervical cancer.

After hearing this my heart sunk, felt so helpless. He schedule me to see him in three weeks since they are booked I could sense from him that it was urgent to have it done. And said will not be able to perform it while on my period.

My family’s opinions were all over, my mother who is a Doctor from my Country said you need to remove the Uterus right away! She reminded me of my grandmother who died of Ovarian cancer, she made me seriously think about removing my Uterus and asked the Dr if we could do that, but he said no that that would be too aggressive he said we are not there.

So while I waited I decided to get a second opinion with a gynecologist Oncologist just to hear his opinion on this ordeal but he is also booked and left me an appointment to see him in a Month around two weeks after the Leep procedure. I also decided to see a General Practitioner or family Dr that I have not seen one in years! Best to be sure how I was in general.

The day I was expecting my period was like two weeks before the procedure and was a no show, I just spotted for two days and had some cramping but no period. I thought maybe will not be here this month so I no worried too much about it.

On the week just before my procedure, my period came and came heavy, the 4th day of my period I woke up with a lot of pain that lasted until the next day I woke up again which was not fun but my period was supposed to end just the day prior the procedure, usually on the 8th day, I don’t have any flow left.

The 8th day came and I was spotting light but got concerned, so I called the Dr and the nurse said they prefer to schedule me a week after since I am still bleeding and usually is better to do it a week after the period, I told her what if stops? She said what if it doesn’t? I told her to not change the appointment because I know is urgent they do this and that I was confident my period will stop, she said okay we will keep it but if Dr sees any bleeding he will not do the procedure and I agreed. I was crossing my fingers my body will cooperate with me.

That night I prayed that my period stops, went to bed, and fell asleep.  This stressful period I had been dreaming about my grandfather a lot he was to me my father since he raised me he was the love of my life he passed on 2019. This night he appeared in my dream, I was at this big fair and for some reason, I decided I wanted to leave…

While on my way out I saw this little boy in his stroller and stopped to look at him and the boy vomited on me. I then decided to go back to the fair and look for a bathroom to clean myself the little boy had vomited from my neck down to my feet.

On the way I found a person that I knew was a friend even if I never seen this person before in my life, the person accompanied me to the very open bathroom, with no walls, so I got in and started to look for soap and realized there was none!

In my frustration all of a sudden I saw my grandfather walking at a distance he stopped at a bench just on the side right in front of me, sat down, and looked at me, he looked young like in his thirties, he gave me a big smile, lifted his arm, and showed me a soap! He made me signs that he was leaving it on the bench, got up and started to walk, and vanished.

I told my friend to please go get it. When all of a sudden another person that was walking by saw the soap and took it! I immediately screamed sir! That soap is mine as you can see I am covered in vomit, the person apologized and gave me the soap. I looked at the soap it was white  I smiled and woke up.

To my delight I had no bleeding it was gone! I felt so happy got to my appointment, and was brought again to this particular room with the weird machine, the Dr came in and explained the procedure.  I asked if he sees any bleeding, and he said not at all. I smiled and thought of my grandfather he did this miracle to stop the bleeding. 😊

He said they will inject (yes inject!) anesthesia that will feel like a bee sting to numb my cervix, then I will hear a vacuum. sound from the machine, burn the affected area and take a biopsy sample which he would do from inside of the uterus removing a disk-size piece.

The nurse proceeded to put a pad around my leg for the electricity that the machine will release to burn the affected area. To be honest, I did not feel the shot much, what hurt was the device they use to open the vagina, then to be still while he does the procedure per Dr orders which even if does not hurt feels very uncomfortable.

He finished and said will call me with the results in one week. This time I requested a week off from work to rest at home. The dr said will take 6 weeks for my Uterus to heal.

This time while I was waiting for the results I was at peace I was having, for the most part, good thoughts, and resting at home did help. When the call came I was ready for it. The Dr said that the area he removed confirmed that I had severe dysplasia and that he was almost 100 percent sure he removed all the bad pre-cancerous cells and that the biopsy came negative it’s not cancer. He also said the abnormal bleeding is hormonal due to my age.

I was relieved to hear that, I asked what was the next step he said to do a pap smear in November in 4 months to check that all is ok. This was great news I felt I could breathe again.

I felt so grateful to God and the Universe for catching this on time. Two days later I decided to put makeup on and this simple mundane thing brought tears to my eyes as crazy as it sounds.

This experience made me realize my mortality I never experienced anything as scary as this. Made me realize dreams that I have put on hold for so long that I needed to make them happen, I need to live life to the fullest.

This is my story, as of now I am waiting to see a second opinion but I feel less inclined to remove my Uterus, the dr said this to me, you want to kill a roach by tumbling the house down, that is not the way to go. Will see what the second opinion has to say.

Love the reason I shared this is to make awareness to beg you to please every year do your pap smear without delay it could be the difference between life and death.

I honestly did not give importance to this test before in my life. I never stopped to think about what would happen if the test shows abnormal, in my case every year I do this test I do it because of routine not because I thought was important.

And some of you reading this will agree on that or worst some have not had a pap smear in years. I have a few female coworkers that have not done it in years and they were not even concerned about the importance to do it.

A quick update:

I got to see another Dr for a second opinion and he agreed with the first doctor: my uterus does not need to get removed. He did drawings explaining in detail that Dr per the Leep results indeed removed all the pre-cancerous cells and agreed also with my doctor that the abnormal bleeding is most likely due to hormones and to keep an eye on it for a few months.

What I got from this experience is that life is fragile. We can be well one day and bad the next. Is so important to do every year your women’s wellness exam! This includes a pap smear and a vaginal ultrasound make sure your Dr does that! Also is important a mammogram every year! You don’t have to wait until your late thirties if something does not feel right, demand to get it done.

Also, super important when going thru a very scary situation to always get a second opinion! Important as well to see every year your family doctor.

Steps I have taken towards a healthy Uterus:

  • I did a Genetic test: this is to check if I have the gen to get ovarian cancer or breast cancer. Doctors do this test if there is family history with this, in my case my Grandmother died of Ovarian Cancer and my mother was positive for the gen. I am still waiting on my results.
  • Getting the Shot for HPV: I already had first dose. Its 3 total in a period of 6 months. Did you know now women can get the shot up to 45 years old? Idid not! Used to be up to your twenties so I always thought I could no longer get it..well not many know! But is a fact so of you are 45 or less and you had no clue about this…go get it! Can save your life! Insurance does not cover this vaccine in older women dont let this stop you! Health has no price.
  • Going to your screenings after having pre-cancet do not miss them

I learned some people do not check themselves every year because of fear and I relate to that, I used to have those thoughts too but is better to get checked right away since if there is something horrible like cancer looming it can be stopped on time like in my case by getting myself checked, Cervical cancer as well ovarian cancer are known like silent killers they do not come with any symptoms to alert you so please do not let fear hold you or the thought of I feel well I have no symptoms so no need to see a Dr! from living your life to the fullest.

Please loves if you haven’t scheduled your pap smear do not wait another day, please get checked, also do not take this world for granted our time in it could be gone before we know it, go make your dreams happen! Go live! 

Thank you for reading. I hope I help you prevent this, I uploaded two vids about this on my tiktok 😊

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